novenber 1st,2007,6:25am,some thing happened that changed my life forever.
I nearly lost everything. I nearly destroyed all that I have , all that I have worked for, all that others have worked for.I nearly lost my freedom,I nearly lost my life.From then on , I went through wat is still,and hopefully ever will be the most horrific,frightening experience of my existence.That night,sat in a dark room, my body wretched as I cried. I was in pieces.I couldn't sleep,I couldn't eat,I couldn't move.I was clutching one of my friends that night,he was crying too.he was shouting for his mother.I remember staring out my window.I have never, in my whole life,even considered suicide.I store at my window.the feeling of actually wanting to end your own life is unreal.I remember being sick as soon as the thought occurred.
I lived with this every day.I tried to be smile,but there was always this darkness.feeding on the back of mmy mind.constantly reminding but by some miracle,I survived this. Its something I will never forget. and although I look back in shame,I don't look back in regret.I have been taught a great lesson. I will never take what I have for granted ever again.
next to no one knows this secret I carry.
next to no one probably ever will.